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I'm a straight (I think) male that is a bit bicurious, that's the question, in fact. I had a girl but we broke up some time ago. I always had stockings / pantyhose fetish that through online porn escalated to pegging and traps (it was also femdom for a while). You know, in porn it's always traps and like that wear the hottest outfits, the lingerie, they have amateur pictures, that's what I liked about it. So I got a bit into trap porn and now that I am through with my girlfriend I bought myself some stockings, a vibrator and anal beads, I also have few pairs of pantyhose and panties that I got in the past. In the past I found out that porn was bad for me, I used to waste too much time and energy - so I destroyed my stash, all my things. As I have said now I bought new + anal play stuff, because I enjoy fucking my ass from time to time.
The question is I am puzzled, is that normal? Lol, I know normal is relative, but what shall I do? I had/have poblems with my dick getting hard in front of women - with my long time gf I conquered it (ofc it gets hard to porn or at home) but on a one-night-stand few nights ago I didn't feel that, I didn't want that woman so much (I wanted to fuck her but the animal-like lust wasn't there). Should I worry about it? Should I pursue my career as a crossdresser, should I give up? Or should I just go ahead and fuck my ass and take some pictures?
I'm 21 and a bit confused. I know porn has bad impact for me, yet I bought the things listed and I damn love fucking my ass. Yet my friends being all right wing and straight, I feel uncomfortable doing all that stuff. I mean in the heat of the moment it's all good, but later sometime come the reflections and I am puzzled.
Wat do anons? Shall I just explore my sexuality and go ahead?
picrel my new stockings, if you're interested I'll dump a few more pictures :3
That's a part of my feminine side, I am afraid of taking decisions, I think too much about things instead going in with the flow and hoping for all the best. I'll repost it to girly than, thanks mate.
About that career xdress thingie - I considered cams for a while, but I won't be able to do it in my current situation, it'd be fun to try in the future, though
If you like it, keep doing it. All I know is that I want to see more ;)
I think you can try living well your sex! Accept your side, and try to learn. Don't accept judgment from people, try to feel your soul.